Today is Sunday

Today is Sunday... Ok. I woke up after receiving from one good friend of mine, told me there's a guy died fall from the Ixora apartment. I was shocked but since I just woke up, I have no intention at all to have a look on what happened.
You can have a look at the picture here, here and here.

Then I just woke up playing the guitar, set down some of my patch on my GT-8. I bought this thing was quite a while, but i never tweek each and every function of this multipurpose effect. I think I should just sell this effect and get myself a DS-1, OD-1 and DD-3. And not to forget Morley Bad Horsie wah. But to play with this keta kebal must have a good amp to play with. The effect alone is not sufficient. Or at least a pre-amp. Tup tap... It will cost me almost the same with my GT-8. So I decided not to sell my GT-8 and just use it as long as I could. Ok... What I talk just don't make any sense. Sorry for wasting your time.

When a blind man cries

For the past few weeks or probably month, I just feel myself wierd. I got a lot of friends but I did feel alone. I feel like a blind man who walks alone and no one care bout me. (Ok, i know some of you did care). But I know thisfeeling is weird. I just can't explain myself why. Tried to start a new life, but the feel is still there. Sometimes we just can't ignore what we feel.

Oh ya... I heard that during Rejab Allah took alot of peoples soul and I am not suprised if the next one is me. If I am not here anymore, please forgive me for what I have done. And if I am still here, I'll try to be a new person with new attitude and change to a better person.

When a Blind man cries
If youre leaving close the door.
Im not expecting people anymore.
Hear me grieving, Im lying on the floor.
Whether Im drunk or dead I really aint too sure.
Im a blind man, Im a blind man and my world is pale.
When a blind man cries, lord, you know there aint no sadder tale.

Had a friend once in a room,
Had a good time but it ended much too soon.
In a cold month in that room
We found a reason for the things we had to do.

Im a blind man, Im a blind man, now my room is cold.
When a blind man cries, lord, you know he feels it from his soul.

Lesson Learned

Sometimes I just don't know myself well. But At least I know some of my characteristics. Yes... I am a person who usually talks the truth and tried my best to be honest. In most cases I tried to give the most accurate answer except for things people labeled it as a secret, then it wont easy for me to pass it around. But then I found out that when I am being honest, people misused it which the end result makes me feel uncomfortable and irritated. In addition, people does not being honest with me as the return. Honesty is the best policy. I did hold those words tight. And when people being dishonest, it could be the end of my trust over him/her. And for me, trust is one of the most important element in a friendship. Why some people just can't tell the truth???
This kind of attitude just fucked up my life and I am sick and tired of it!

Hands On Heart

I just feel alone. I need someone to talk to. But I just didn't find anybody who suit for this job. I feel somekind of pressure. This was proven when some of my collegue said that i look like serabut or something. Probably I didn't manage myself well or probably it reflects from the inner side.
I got loads of works at my work place. And I am pretty sure, that was not the reason why I am acting so. I can handle a tones of works during my industrial training with 3 QA technicians around and working for 12 hours. Today, we have 5 technicians, working for 8 hours and I got more than triple of my basic pay. I just don't understand myself.

You maybe human... But you still an animal

While I surfing the NST site to get to know what's happening around, I was touched with this one story about a 10 years rape nightmare ends. Here's the intro of the news:

PETALING JAYA: For more than 10 years, a woman endured the trauma and shame of being raped by her father.

I just can't imagine what type of father is this. He has a comlete human physical but a total of animal behaviour! What makes me more confuse was he's not a single father for the report was lodge together with the mother. 10 years is no joke man. I think he better choose to pay a prostitute, if his wife and his hand can't satisfies his sexual desires; rather than raping his own child. It just don't make any sense!!! Even I have no relationship and I didn't even recognize the girl and his family, but I feel as mad as hell. If I ever met this guy, I will rip of his testicle and gave it to a wild crocodile to chew it so that he will never ever rape her own daughter or anyone else in this world, ever again...!!!

Read full story here.
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Guys next door

Last few days, six guys from kolej komuniti bukit beruang moved next to my house. Yesterday, while I came back home from town, I did say hi to them and together with a brief introduction of myself. I can't spend so much time since I was rush for work. Just now while I watch this G3 video of Eric Johnson - 1998, (since just now Tapa asked me for the tab) I heard some words outside from my windows, "Assalamualaikum... Assalamualaikum... (Peace be upon you)." As usual, I am phobia when people throw those words outside from my house in a very skema way. You want to know why? Ask my ex-housemates whether in BBI or Taman Kerjasama. I have a bad experience with all this Tabligh movement here in bukit beruang. I would not choose to elaborate more on this tabligh topic. But then I just be brave and opened up my curtain and I saw my neighbours outside. And I asked him, what's up? Eh... segan-segan pulak... aku lempang kang... Oooo... They wanted to borrow my guitar. Haha.... "Dah gian la bang...!! Nak amek kat kampung, jauh!" Huh.. Whatever la. I just lend him my cheap Santa Cruz guitar, and hope they happy to lepaskan gian on that guitar. :)
Ok.. I shall go to work now!

Good Karma

This is some of the materials i received from one of my upline for unit trust. It is a powerpoint presentation and I copy it back for the sake of posting this blog. It's a good one. Although it is not the real instructions for life, but take a look at the points given and try to make your own conclusion.

I N S T R U C T I O N S F O R L I F E
1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s: Respect for self, Respect for other’s and Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a
wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and
think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for
your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the
current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your
love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

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Candle Lite Dinner

Just now i belek2 my CD case and I found up a CD of Candle Lite Dinner, performing at Sri Costa Hotel on the 6th August 2004. Almost 2 years past and I can still remember how our band was active at that moment. The line-up Azmil(drum), Shafiz(Bassist and sometimes Eu Gene on Bass) and myself Johan(Guitar and vocal). We played for a few gigs in Melaka, before Azmil decided to stay in KL and we don't play together again. I tried to form another band but every bands was like pokok pisang. Berbuah sekali pastu kena tebang. But still using the name Candle Lite Dinner for some functions because I can't think of any suitable band names for the temporary band. Then the organizer simply put on Candle Lite Dinner as they recognized me as CLD.

I played with Azmil since we we're in Alpha. From our first band South Park, played on MMUsic Live and Kickin' concert organized by Guitarist Society with five line up, Azmil, Gadap, Tengku Aidyl, Wan Rathnor and me. Then during the second MMUsic II Acoustic Session, we played again as South Park (Johan-guitar+vocal, Azmil-drum, Rathnor-Bass, and Slumber-guitar). Azmil, Rathnor and I was addicted to this jamming and we did jam regularly at that time (even twice a week with 2 hours per session) and we performed once on Dataran Sejarah during 2002 new year. But then, Rathnor transferred to Cyber (formed Service Provided for the Poor and April) and then our major problem is to find a bassist! Then we came out with Syefri as our bassist and we performed as The Lost Idols on telentime where seven collar t-shirt as the guest artist (that time just launched their first album, freeway, dreaming and broke with Mokhtar on drum). Then Sharidz took over as our bassist. Realizing that people didn't recognized The Lost Idols We then changed it back to our old band and with a brand new spelling - Sorth Parque. We did composed a few songs with this band until Sharidz continue to further studies at New Zealand. Then Amed joined the band during the heat of Muse we're in the atmosphere. Eu gene then joined our band and we changed it to Candle Lite Dinner. We qualified to the final for BOTB tones of Absolutions, while Eu Gene already graduated and back to PJ with his family. Shafiz then took over the place as our bassist and this is our last bassist before the band was split.

Enjoy the video!

Cosmic Funk Express

Official Announcement

Dear friends,

With this, I’m sad to announcement that Cosmic Funk Express has disbanded, Due to the reason that Zack has left the band and is set to return to Korea. Because of this, Alda and Alex have decided to call it quits but perhaps with a new hope that someday they will find a new lead instrumentalist to continue Cosmic’s legacy.

On behalf of the band, we would like to take this time to thank everyone who has supported us along our journey and we’re really sorry for letting you guys down.

Thank you so much and we love you all

Alda, Alex and Zack

While they're on the way to the peak of their music, suddenly shit does happened. They haven't finish their album yet, but thing goes on so fast and didn't allow them to stay any longer as a band. Yeah.. it sad! They're good band. Probably the best band in Malaysia, with a unique kinda music. Then they have to release one of the talented gutarist in this region. Wish them a good luck. Hope this is not the end for Cosmic. May luck be with them and all the best to Zack Kim to start a new life as a Korean Boy in Korea.
They will having a farewell gig soon at Mont Kiara Jazz Festival, date will be confirmed later. Hope to be there...

Down and down again

Err... I just don't know what to say. Sometimes working with malay you'll experience a kind of pressure. Yeah.. pressure. Not because of loads of works they asked you to do, and not because of their quality of works are low. Here's what happened to me; I joined MO1 QA during my practical and mixed with every people who I worked with. But then I joined back in MO1 QA with the same post, but the difference is I completed my studies... I kept the same attitude, respect the elders, although most of them are operators - then they can reply "Johan, dah sombong. Orang dah abes belajar... Dah pangkat tinggi, dah nak jadik enjinier... eh... nak jadi anjing liar". For those who worked with my department, they were happy as I returned there as a technicianbut some of them kept on saying things like this which totally makes me down! Yeah, probably for them this is just another joke, but seriously I hate that kind of jokes. I did act normal just as during my industrial training; as far as i am concern lah... What for I feel proud, I get the same post as what I have last time - technician with the basic less than RM1k - still wearing Cubic Electronics t-shirt, while there are 3 of my collegues, studied in MMU joined Cubic as Senior engineer assistant and Associate Engineer with basic pay around 2K. I do need some support, not this kind of tease which makes people down.
Another case is people from higher levels, who deals with all those managers - who decide all those engineers, also never want to help to promote not just me, but some of friends as well which clearly can see their attitude towards works, also their experience. Then, what can I say... Just deal with it! This is the kind of life I am facing right now - Just accept the truth, or else, just quit the job! (Yeah, I was thinking to open a business)

Hole In My Soul

Hole In My Soul

I'm down a one way street
With a one night stand
With a one track mind
Out in no man's land
The punishment sometimes
Don't seem to fit the crime

Yeah there's a hole in my soul
But one thing I've learned
For every love letter written
There's another one burned
So you tell me how it's gonna be this time

Is it over?
Is it over?
'Cause I'm blowin' out the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns
The knife inside of me

Take a look and you will find
There's nothing there, girl
Yeah I swear, I'm telling you, girl yeah 'cause

(Chorus)
There's a Hole In My Soul
That's been killing me forever
It's a place where a garden never grows
There's a Hole In My Soul
Yeah, I should have known better
'Cause your love's like a thorn without a rose
Yeah, yeah

I'm as dry as a seven year drought
I got dust for tears
Yeah I'm all tapped out
Sometimes I feel broken and can't get fixed

I know there's been all kinds of shoes
Underneath your bed
Now I sleep with my boots on
But you're still in my head
And something tells me this time
I'm down to my last licks

'Cause if it's over
Then it's over
And it's driving me insane

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns
The knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find
There's nothing there, girl, yeah, I swear
I'm telling you girl yeah 'cause

(Chorus)

Yeah, is it over?
Yeah, it's over
And I'm blowing out the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns
The knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find
There's nothing there, girl, yeah, I swear
I'm telling you girl yeah 'cause

(Chorus)

Oh, oh...

Altitudes by Jason Becker

Music will reflect my feeling and it sounds good in different situation. Sometimes you listen to a song and u feel it's a nice songs, but then if you listen it again in other time, you'll feel like "Eh... How can the other day i listen this song it was nice?" After doing a research, I found out that music just simply reflects with our daily life. Have you guys ever think why most of metal listeners are from a middle age, alternative listeners from the younger generation, jazz listeners are most from an older age and pop listeners mostly are girls. In my opinion, after doing some observation - people listen to songs because they reflects from their inner side. Mostly students (male) will listen to a sreaming2 songs (i like Nirvana) just simply because of the pressure I had. While in the other hand, for those who don't just because usually they study early and if they can't finish their studies during exam - ok... Just let it be! I'll take the paper next year! (err... this is just example la) That is why screaming vocalist comes from a troublesome family - Take Corey Taylor (Slipknot) and Kurt Cobain (Nirvana) for instance. While some rap or hip hop usually sang by people who have less problems. They enjoy their life. And most of malay songs are jiwang2 songs just simply because the composer (most of the songs comes from the same composer la kan) will definitely have some memory with their lovers. Those who appreciate music will produce jazz songs. And of course for Nasyid, mostly comes from religious background. Errmmm....
Sometimes when I woke up in the morning, I will enjoy some fast number songs or songs that can bring me some semangat. Time for sleep, if I still turn on those kinda music, will make me insomniac...
This is just my opinion. Not sure bout you guys...

Boring Day is Yesterday

Yesterday, I am totally out of mood. I woke up as early as 9am (even though it is not early for some of you, but it is early for someone who's working at 3.15pm) with some plan in my mind. But suddenly the plan ruinned up, and i straight away go home to have some sleep (coz i slept late the other day). But then, since i took a cup of power root ali cafe with tongkat ali earlier that day, I only can guling2 without able to have even a 5 minutes nap. Then i decided to play my guitar until it was 2.00pm. After took my bath and prepare to go to work, i went to the campus first to visit the MMUsic booth. I went to my workplace and there's an issue on the soundcard SB0467z (sound blaster X-Fi) which i was given a task to follow up on that issue. I can't go break to have some food until that job is done - and i felt damn hungry since i didn ate anything since i woke up or in fact since last nite dinner. I went break alone at around 6 something alone because they went break earlier and while I was eating i heard something which makes me uncomfortable. I had a bad day yesterday and I just don't know how to cheer myself back again. I should be happy coz i finally received my final result with my GPA 3+ but i don't feel good until i forgot bout my result. Hurrmmm... Please God cheer me up again...

Thank You everybody

Today i feel fucked up! I just don't know what to say...

Am's Farewell Party

Last nite could be a memorial night for Wan Mohd Irham, or we call him with his nickname Am. It could be his final moment in Cubic Electronics Sdn Bhd (or probably he'll apply for job there or maybe offered for the same post after he completed his degree). He started working there during my industrial internship and now I'm back in cubic he resigned from his post. He finished his 6 months training and another 2 months contract as a technician there which makes all together a total of 8 months.
A dinner was organized by MO1 QAs to celebrate his resignation and to appreciate all his contributions during his service period. I arrived there around 8.30, straight to the factory after bought a present for him at Jusco. Only those who worked in shift B attended this dinner (except for me - special case... and of course Am la kan). Am is a hardworking, and his attitude can be seen from the beginning after he join MO1 QA.
This is my second time to attend a farewell dinner celebration here at cubic. Last time the Pak Guard didn't allow us to took all the pictures inside the factory are. But today, I just snap a few shot without any of the security noticed me taking any of those pictures. Thank God. (I hate security guards! they are the most kerek creature in this whole wide world! Regardless where they're working...ok, they just doing their job. But still...)

Mdm Noraishah giving away a souvenir to Am